My highschool club failed to meet my expectations for it.
Everything lead up to this. I always try not to expose any personal information as much as I can just so anyone from my highschool club wouldn't recognize who I am and actually put out a bounty on me. Who am I kidding? I'm pretty sure most of the higher ups already hate my ass; plus what are the chances of them actually finding out about this site? I'm not sure how I would go about calculating a number for that. Anyway.
I'm not sure what I expected.
Before I entered highschool, I always saw the experience of attending one through rose-tinted glasses. Best way I can describe it is like iCarly or Victorious, I suppose, even though I have never actually watched those shows. Actually, here's a straight up humiliating confession: I thought it would be like in anime. It goes without saying that this was pretty stupid and naive of me. Why would a highschool offer you the same experience as a fictional one? You silly goose.
Either way, at the very least, I thought I could finally feel how it would be like to participate in a club. I always adored the idea of being in a cliche or a small group that bonds over a mutual interest, where you can discuss and have group activities related to it. It has always been my dream to find my place in highschool through that way. Not so luckily for me, the one singular club I joined didn't do any of that at all.
This was a club for book reading, at least it advertises itself as one. I was really into reading back then: there used to be a bookstore (got replaced by a boba tea shop later on, RIP.) within walking distance of my middle school, so everytime classes were over, I would head there and buy a new book, which I would usually finish in 2 days. I really thought I was gonna have a little bookclub to share with people my thoughts and feelings about my newly acquired detective novels. Just like in my animes. LOL.
What I got: WORK
I'm not complaining about gaining experience or whatever. But my main gripe is that there were no club activities pertinent to reading, or books. Fuck my life. For the entirety of my freshman year I was too afraid to ask to leave, because I thought they would definitely do a group-reading session or some shit later on. Well I mean I also had crippling social anxiety and standing up for myself would deal me significant PSY damages. This didn't change at all for the entirety of my membership.
I never bothered joining other clubs because I was either too busy or lazy, but also because my experience being in this one genuinely ruined any desire to join another. What if it's just all work again? I'm not risking dealing with all of this shit again.
Actually, it seems like the robotics club in my highschool does have club activities related to programming and whatnot. Why didn't I join that one? Am I stupid?
It's whatever. I don't see any point in wallowing over missed chances now. Man, I am curious if the Japanese culture club ever hosted anime watch parties though...